Today, it’s rainy and the weather is depicting my afternoon mood. I’ve had some time to sit and think, and just have my mind to myself.
Ever feel like some days you’re in this pool of water and you don’t know which way to turn to get out of it?
It’s kind of one of those days for me. It’s not a bad day, but you know how things go when you have time to think too much? Unfortunately, I’m at a crossroad with not much say in which way to go.
Life is just so full of pandemonium and sorrow. I feel like my mind is racing a 100 miles an hour, and I cannot slow it down. I don’t really know where the anxiety comes from today.
HA! Really, who am I fooling? I should say I don’t know which direction the anxiety is coming from today, because it’s coming from all directions.
I feel like everywhere I turn there are dilemmas, uproars, battles, and drama. Doesn’t anyone appreciate peace anymore?
I close my eyes, rub my temples, and wish my head would stop pounding. Some days I just need to go over things in my head, work through them and find my own comfort. Other days I think about everything going on around me, most of what I can do nothing about, and it consumes me like a black cloud.
It’s heartbreaking. And, almost impossible to stop. My family has been known to not tell me about situations going on just so I won’t worry. It’s not really that I worry all the time, like they think, it’s just so much chaos bewilders my brain. It puts me on overload.
I feel like I’m such a good multi-tasker. Organized. Fab time manager.
Why, do I carry the weight of the world?
I was talking to a friend recently, and we were having a discussion about how men and women are wired differently. I think that is so true, but I think different personalities are wired different, also.
Some men should be women and vice versa.
I have joked about that with a few couples I know saying the man is more like a woman with sappy feelings and tears in his eyes, balling over the last episode of This is Us.
I feel some people are empathetic, wear their heart on their sleeve, always think about others, are generous, kind and care about the overall human race. We will title them do-gooders.
Give, and it will be given to you. Good measure, pressed down, shaken together, running over, will be put into your lap. For with the measure you use it will be measured back to you. Luke 6:38
Others think more in the form of me or I, are more self-centered, bullyish at times, selfish and prefer to do for themselves without considering doing for others. Whether they are this way by default or it never even crossed their mind is up for debate and depends on the person of course. With uncertainty of how to refer to them, we will call them an egoist.
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves. Phillippians 2:3
Who’s happier of the two?
I think many of us have an answer, or at least an opinion, so I will leave that for you to think about. I feel a good deal of us have a little of both in us, or at least in some situations; however most, like many people in general, either think about themselves or primarily worry about others.
The Lord wants us to show humility, forgive, be patient, and live by The Golden Rule…
So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.Matthew 7:12
I had coffee with a friend today, and she made me feel so good when she said my blog makes her want to do more and do better. I hope everyone feels that way.
I want to feel better, do better, show good to the world and share what I’m going through in hopes of helping others find some inner peace.
Too often we are mistaken. We believe our happiness, our inner peace come from somewhere or someone. You may have outside contributions or influences, but that destination is only reached from within.
Dig deep inside your soul and find it. It is there, somewhere, waiting in a calm setting, with a quintessential mindset in a serene moment. Seek God, and as you calm your mind and search for peace within your heart….It will come to you.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraidJohn 14:27