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Precious, Purposeful Life

One foot in front of the other. Keep moving.

I’ve been telling myself that all week. My mind drifts off to what’s going on around me, and it’s like I start to stall.

Ever feel that way?

You’re surviving. Staying focused. Staying positive and then your mind starts to wander to that dark, desolate place and you find yourself in quicksand. You can’t lift your foot to move forward and you start to sink to that low.

Don’t let it happen.

You are in control of your thoughts. Don’t ever give that up.

I’ve told myself that a few times this week. Let your mind think about it for a second and then get yourself together and move forward. No matter how hard it is, stay positive and keep moving.

If I let myself get too far gone, then it’s even harder to come back from the hole I’ve let myself fall into. If you hit a low, don’t let it suck you in. It’s difficult, but don’t let the devil have ahold of you and draw you back to that place you have fought so hard to escape.

Resist the devil and he will flee from you.

James 4:7

On days I’m struggling to stay positive and all I want to do is cry, it takes an extra effort to stay positive. But, those days the demons are lurking in the darkness just waiting to help you sink yourself a little lower.

Yesterday was kind of a tough day mentally. Some bad memories resurfaced, some hurtful moments got revisited and it put me in a vulnerable frame of mind. I didn’t sleep well last night. And, I started thinking about all the unknowns in my life. Worrying about what I can’t control and needing some strength and guidance.

The weeks ahead are weighing me down. I know I need to get my feet planted firmly and my mind in the right place. Today is a day I need to start out on a good note. Days that start out poorly do not tend to go well for me, but the days I start with prayer and trusting in the Lord help me gain my strength.

“But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen you and protect you from the evil one.

2 Thessalonians 3:3

I tell my children all the time you have to have hope and faith in something. Without it you will be lost.

However, on days you are thinking about all the sickness and turmoil in the world it is hard to not get lost. In the last few months three families I know are dealing with a new cancer diagnosis.

Why does this keep happening? Why does cancer consume every thought and prayer in my brain?

Some days I feel like it is every place I turn, every way I look, the only word I hear. How can one single word take up so much space in my head?

I know what all those families are facing. The long emotional road they are about to travel. The sorrow, the heartbreak, the fear looking them in the face. It’s like a sad song that plays over and over in your head. And, it won’t stop.

Mentally it’s exhausting. Physically it wears me down to nothing, unable to function properly or have enough energy to get to tomorrow. That’s the point I can’t let myself get to…EVER. It’s a place that messes with your mind, where demons attack, and you lose yourself. It’s the darkest blackness you will ever see.

And, I promised myself I will never go back.

I have found even in those gloomy days there is light and something to be thankful for in my life. I simply have to search for it, but mostly it’s right there staring me in the face. I believe those are the times I have just lost my focus on all the good around me.

Just as the sun will rise tomorrow, there is good in every situation, in every tragedy, every loss. Even when we can’t see it, even when we view it as a struggle, there is good somewhere underneath.

Life is precious, so don’t take it for granted. We all have a purpose.

Sometimes bad things happen to a person, not to save them, but to save someone else.

Sometimes our purpose isn’t ours at all.

Maybe, we are simply the messenger. And our purpose is to save someone else.